Hello, my name is Grace.
Many people carry emotional baggage like fears, rejections and emotional traumas of the past, not realising that there is freedom and healing through Jesus Christ available for them. I was one of those people carrying fears from the past for many years, but Jesus healed me and set me free.
I grew up in the generation that tended to produce a good number of people in places of leadership and responsibility who were over-bearing and controlling, and who seemed to love the power of their position to control people's lives. This situation greatly affected me and developed in me a fear of authority figures as well as a fear of humiliation.
My experience was this.
During my nursing training in a big New Zealand hospital in the 1950s, a person's position in life was seen to be very important. A junior first-year nurse would be expected to stand up and put her hands behind her back even if a nurse just one year senior was to walk into the room. As some nurses rose in seniority, the power over their junior counterparts went to their heads. It was obvious that some ward sisters and hospital block supervisors loved their positions of power.
There was one particular nursing supervisor who became nicknamed 'The Wasp' by all the nurses. She instilled fear into me by the many subtle things she did while on duty. A ward round inspection at 11pm, which was knock-off time for the nurses, and deliberately finding some little minor problem to complain about, was one of her tactics. She would then disappear somewhere else and not return to inspect the ward again for at least half-an-hour, keeping everyone waiting well after the shift had finished.
There was one particular time when I was working in a children's ward, and as junior nurse I was responsible for a large area of cubicles filled with children recovering from various ills. At times they became rather noisy, as recovering children tend to do. In the midst of the noise this day there came a booming voice directed at me. It was 'The Wasp', who proceeded to 'wipe the floor' with me verbally in front of all the children. I was so humiliated I headed for the sluice room to have a good cry.
From this time on I developed a very real fear of all authority figures and a fear of humiliation, although I didn't recognise it at the time. This fear stayed with me until I was in my early forties, when in a wonderful way I came to understand that I could be healed and set free.
My husband and I were missionaries in a remote part of Papua New Guinea highlands for many years, and one day we received from friends in Australia a cassette tape titled 'Healing of Memories'. After listening to this tape, hope was given me that maybe I could be healed from the many fears that had been established in me from past hurts and emotional traumas.
Little by little I revisited, in my memories, the incidents that had caused the areas of fear and terror in me. I spoke out in prayer to the Lord that I was willing to forgive those like 'The Wasp', and others, who had so badly affected my life. Then I was able to ask God to heal the memories that had so tormented me, and at the same time identify the names of agents of Satan that had used these opportunities to get at me. I renounced in Jesus' Name such things as 'Fear of Authority Figures', 'Fear of Humiliation', and others as the Holy Spirit showed me what they were. Then with a simple command using the authority given me by the Lord Luke 10:19, I commanded these tormenting spirits to get out of my life and never return. Isaiah 61:1-3 and Luke 4:14-19 are almost identical passages of Scripture. Jesus takes up the verses from Isaiah and tells us in Luke that he is the fulfilment of them. In Jesus Christ we, as his people, have that same authority to know and minister healing and freedom to ourselves, and others.)
The results have been total release in all these areas and I continue to be full of praise and thanksgiving to God for what he has done.
Many people carry emotional baggage like fears, rejections and emotional traumas of the past, not realising that there is freedom and healing through Jesus Christ available for them. I was one of those people carrying fears from the past for many years, but Jesus healed me and set me free.
I grew up in the generation that tended to produce a good number of people in places of leadership and responsibility who were over-bearing and controlling, and who seemed to love the power of their position to control people's lives. This situation greatly affected me and developed in me a fear of authority figures as well as a fear of humiliation.
My experience was this.
During my nursing training in a big New Zealand hospital in the 1950s, a person's position in life was seen to be very important. A junior first-year nurse would be expected to stand up and put her hands behind her back even if a nurse just one year senior was to walk into the room. As some nurses rose in seniority, the power over their junior counterparts went to their heads. It was obvious that some ward sisters and hospital block supervisors loved their positions of power.
There was one particular nursing supervisor who became nicknamed 'The Wasp' by all the nurses. She instilled fear into me by the many subtle things she did while on duty. A ward round inspection at 11pm, which was knock-off time for the nurses, and deliberately finding some little minor problem to complain about, was one of her tactics. She would then disappear somewhere else and not return to inspect the ward again for at least half-an-hour, keeping everyone waiting well after the shift had finished.
There was one particular time when I was working in a children's ward, and as junior nurse I was responsible for a large area of cubicles filled with children recovering from various ills. At times they became rather noisy, as recovering children tend to do. In the midst of the noise this day there came a booming voice directed at me. It was 'The Wasp', who proceeded to 'wipe the floor' with me verbally in front of all the children. I was so humiliated I headed for the sluice room to have a good cry.
From this time on I developed a very real fear of all authority figures and a fear of humiliation, although I didn't recognise it at the time. This fear stayed with me until I was in my early forties, when in a wonderful way I came to understand that I could be healed and set free.
My husband and I were missionaries in a remote part of Papua New Guinea highlands for many years, and one day we received from friends in Australia a cassette tape titled 'Healing of Memories'. After listening to this tape, hope was given me that maybe I could be healed from the many fears that had been established in me from past hurts and emotional traumas.
Little by little I revisited, in my memories, the incidents that had caused the areas of fear and terror in me. I spoke out in prayer to the Lord that I was willing to forgive those like 'The Wasp', and others, who had so badly affected my life. Then I was able to ask God to heal the memories that had so tormented me, and at the same time identify the names of agents of Satan that had used these opportunities to get at me. I renounced in Jesus' Name such things as 'Fear of Authority Figures', 'Fear of Humiliation', and others as the Holy Spirit showed me what they were. Then with a simple command using the authority given me by the Lord Luke 10:19, I commanded these tormenting spirits to get out of my life and never return. Isaiah 61:1-3 and Luke 4:14-19 are almost identical passages of Scripture. Jesus takes up the verses from Isaiah and tells us in Luke that he is the fulfilment of them. In Jesus Christ we, as his people, have that same authority to know and minister healing and freedom to ourselves, and others.)
The results have been total release in all these areas and I continue to be full of praise and thanksgiving to God for what he has done.
